Breathe No More

The night was still young. The world outside was dark and cold, yet the
echoing voices of people and the music that played told me there was
gonna be excitement that evening. Before I knew it, you were right in
front of me.

I sat down on a chair, and like a little girl amazed by the stars that
lighted up the inky blue sky, I stared at your twinkling eyes. I wished
that you would at least glance at me for just a mere second. And you
did. I turned my eyes away from your face and looked down.

I figured it out right there and then. Your silent actions have
confirmed that we were strangers to each other. You probably didn’t
know I exist. And I myself never met you all my life - that is, until
that night. But still we did not talk, not even a hint of smile to each
other.

Minutes passed, and I heard your voice. It was like soft rain that fell
upon the leaves, like a flowing river that runs through the fields,
like the wind’s sweet sigh that rushes through my senses. It made me
feel like I was being cuddled and rocked to sleep. What else could I do
but smile and picture your face in my head while softly singing? I then
realized that the song described how I felt that very moment. It was
only that night when you came into my life, and I didn’t know what
would happen next, because we did not even say "hi". Not a word. And
for me, that was silence in the middle of a noisy crowd. But your voice
had broken that depressing silence. That voice had shattered the
coldness I felt in the air. That voice had melted my heart, like
vanilla ice cream over hot apple pie.

I gazed at you again. You didn’t seem to notice me looking at you the
whole time. Then you stood up in front of me and smiled at your
reflection. I looked up just to see your smile that seemed to drown me
in an ocean of happy thoughts and memories. Again, I was mesmerized by
how your eyes sparkled like crystals, and I could have just continued
staring at your face that stunned me from the first time I saw you -
until you looked at me. Yes. I was sure of that. Your eyes just turned
and looked at me. Naturally, I instantly turned my eyes away from
yours, and yet I could swear that my heart took a leap that very
moment.

I was falling hopelessly, secretly wishing that somehow, time would
freeze itself so I could get lost in that moment - a moment that seemed
so common to everyone else, but so special and rare to me. It was a
moment I would always treasure. I just wanted that it would not end so
soon. But I couldn’t do anything. I knew that a few hours later, you’d
be walking out of my life.

It did happen. The next thing I knew, I was back to reality. Back to my
old self thinking of home, family, friends, school, music, and my
computer. I was back to my life. Yet, something else lingered at the
back of my mind. I woke up the morning after, and I thought of the
nagging feeling that was spinning ’round in my head. I wondered if you
were real, or if you were just in my silent reverie. If you were only a
dream, I wished I didn’t have to wake up so soon. If you were real, I
couldn’t wait to finally meet you one day, if that could be possible.

But still, I know it. I don’t know how or why, but I just know it.
Someday, I will be with you. I will be mesmerized by the light in your
eyes. I will drown in your beautiful smile. The sound of your voice
will be music to my ears. And the slightest touch of your hand will
take my breath away…